Bad Case of the Mondays.

Inevitable bad luck. Inevitable Monday afternoons with dreary stormclouds. Days when everything seems to go wrong. Sniffling noses, allergies, lightning. Broken pencils, smeared eyeliner, untied shoes.

Let's forget about everything. Let's destroy responsibility. I just want to live for the moment. I want to live for bonfires and summer nights, spending June in Paris. For film cameras and feminist music festivals. For scratch-free wrists and gap-toothed grins of youth. I'm already tired of spending hours upon hours researching, staring at numbers. I just want summer. I just want happiness.

I just want something to actually work out, for a change.

How was your Monday?

xoxo,

Maddie.

P.S. Sorry for irregular posting; school is getting a little hectic but I'll try to post more often. What would you like to see?

P.P.S. I've just found out I'll be seeing Ingrid Michaelson and Sarah McLachlan live, together, in July at the Lilith Fair. (!!!)

Expedition Telepone.

Photography by yours truly.

So let the poets cry themselves to sleep. I'm just sitting here, writing you a letter on rain-soaked notebook paper, blue lines smeared with distress. I'm writing you a letter to tell you that I think your smile is fantastic, but I'm watching from the sidelines as you hold her close. Art class laughter, pasting postcards into sketchbooks and watching winter drift into the past. I can't wait until the painful reminders of broken hearts in autumn finally graduate and walk away. I wish I could tell you that each and every time you pulled me through my struggles and laughed about the snow, I couldn't think of anything but you and I. They say sometimes things fall apart so that other things can fall together, but I'm not so convinced. Why am I the only one who ever seems to watch things fall apart? I just want to know that two people can be happy together, forever. But at the end of the day, I'm just a girl you barely know, writing you a letter that I'll never send.

xoxo,

Maddie.

PS-Despite these somber words, I've had an incredibly happy week. How have you been?

Mixtape of the Month: March/April.

Oops, horrible me! I completely forgot Mixtape of the Month during March, so I suppose you'll just have to suffer with one! C'est ma faute, mes amis, je suis desole.

Thieves by She & Him

Call it Off by Tegan & Sara

Merry Happy by Kate Nash

Snow White by Jaymay

SexyChick by David Guetta (Don't judge me!)

Maybe I Will by Julia Nunes

Telephone by Lady Gaga

Grace Kelly by Mika

Expectations by Pomplamoose

Silver Lining by Rilo Kiley

Hoppipolla by Sigur Ros

Shape Up by Total Babe

These are the songs I'm blasting with the windows rolled down.

And how are you? xoxo,

MADDIE

I Want to See You Smile.

I want to see you smile again. Smile like you mean it, I don't want you to pretend. I want to see that smile that lit up my life from the moment I met you. To all of you girls out there, I want to see you dream. I want to see utter confusion dancing with adventure and mystery throughout your dazzling eyes, youth glinting off your sparkling baby blues. I want you to believe that you can achieve whatever you want, to contemplate your own beauty. I want those scars hidden under sweater sleeves to disappear. You are everything to me. I want to see you strong again, laughter exploding from your red, raspberry lips. You are absolutely spectacular. I refuse to watch you fade before my eyes. I love you. You are enough, you have enough, you do enough.

xoxo,

MADDIE.

Tegan & Sara!

AHHH! Yesterday I spent my Saturday evening in a crowded theatre, listening to the haunting and enchantingly beautiful voices of Tegan & Sara Quin. There were so many amazing people there, all so incredibly excited to hear them play. They were fantastic. I've never heard anyone perform so perfectly live, & their personality carried over through their between-song humour that they're both so well known for. Both girls had a humble attitude of sorts that made the entire experience worthwhile. It felt like listening to an old friend play a few of your favorite songs. Over all, it was a spectacular evening; I went with my good friends, & seeing one of your favorite bands live is always a plus. I can't stop listening to 'Call It Off.' If you don't already listen to Tegan & Sara, I would most definitely recommend giving them your time, you won't regret it. I've uploaded the best of the photos I took last night, I hope you enjoy. Happy Easter!

xoxo,

MADDIE.

Red Lipstick & the Smell of Spring.

It's something in the wind; a smell, an emotion that seems to linger on the wind as spring winds breeze gently through open classroom windows. A hope of summer that fills your every breath, gathering like puddles throughout your lungs. It collects as you breathe in, deep and proud, gasping for each last inhale of spring. There's something about Friday afternoons spent in the surroundings of those you love most; about brand-new summer clothing, delicate dresses, & shiny red lipstick smearing onto pearly white teeth. We spend our windy nights prancing through grassy fields, listening to haunting love songs and blinking at the long awaited sunshine through eager eyelashes. It's finally here; after long and cold months of snow drifts, chapped lips, and dry hands, it's here at last. Let's dance together atop our rooftops & stare longingly at the atmosphere through nickel store telescopes. I love this.

xoxo,

MADDIE.