Twitter & Questions Reminder!

photo by yours truly.

Hello everyone! Just a friendly reminder that you now have two more days including Friday to ask questions before I make the video! Ask away! See the last post and comment with your questions, or shoot me an email at sprinklethefairy(at)live.com!

Secondly, I have recreated my twitter account! I know I have had interesting relationships with social media thus far, considering my formspring ended unsuccessfully and I closed my twitter almost a year ago because of some personal drama and such that had occurred, but I have decided to create another. I think it's a really interesting dynamic used to connect with my readers, & hey, it's fun! You can find me at http://www.twitter.com/sprinklediary ! Follow away.

Comments disabled here because I want you to continue the discussion on my previous post!
Muah! xoxo, Maddie.

Questions Vlog!

Hello! I am really excited for this new project I'm starting--I realized I had never created an intoduction post to let you know who I am, so I came up with the idea for a vlog! I explain everything in the video (in which I look like a giant dork!), but ultimately, you would submit questions that you would like me to answer in the comments or email me at sprinklethefairy(at)live(dot)com! Then at the end of the week, I will answer all of your questions in an additional vlog. Excited yet?!?!?!!

Get to it! I have enabled anonymous comments, so if you've always read my blog but never commented, (which is a lot of you according to GoStats), you are able to comment without having a blogger account.

Thank you so much! Happy Monday!

xoxo, Maddie.

Hope Hope Hope.

images from tumblr, xcodyjamesx, weheartit, bethfromabove, & bisousmonamour.

Noise. That's all anything ever is. Beautiful distractions. Melodies and whistles. Noise.

Happiness comes in such unexpected forms. Deeply contemplated letters in the mail, unexpected love, new people who fill us with joy. Support. Hope. Hope, hope, hope.

It is in these moments, with the rain pouring down on our windshields, the blankets pulled tight around our shoulders, and laughter filling our throats, that we feel at ease. Because through the suffocating sadness, we find hope in the little things. We find great reason to smile.

Let me tell you a little secret... Everything will be okay in the end. And if it's not okay, it's not the end.

I like the way things are starting to change. Now give me some time to adjust and breathe. Just breathe.

xoxo, Maddie.

Algebra.

The truth is,

I don't really hate math. I love it when I get in the mood, my fingers flying across the paper, scribbling down answers & work in a mad frenzy. Typing numbers and formulas into the calculator. Tap, tap, tap.

I liked math because it made sense, really.

It was simple.

Plug a number into a formula, and the answer was there. Written as clear as day. Ink on crumpled notebook paper. Perfection.

Then things became more complicated.

Formulas started becoming more intricate. Memorization became key.

Proofs and reasoning and critical thinking were thrown in.

The answers became less and less clear. Decimals, word problems, fractions. Help, help, help.

Cry, cry, cry.

I feel myself falling into the same patterns I did this time last year. I feel myself trying to learn from them, attempting to claw my way out of these habits and pull myself up, but I am caught by an overwhelming desire to just stop everything.

Even for a second.

To walk out of class and drive off.

To find somewhere to lay down in the grass and just exist. Sleep. Rest. Listen.

I am scared of commitment. That, or my subconscious is. Karma?

Each time I begin to feel happy with the direction things are going, everything changes.

Change, change, change. I need security.

My muscles ache and my heart hurts. I miss you. I miss it all.

I miss me.

I miss me.

I miss me.

I wish for days filled with laughter. Backpacks filled with rolls of films. Nights filled with that healthy balance of homework and creativity. Car trunks filled with paintings, and sketchbooks filled with ideas.

I know these days will come again. i just need to find the right formula.

xoxo.

The Fear.

The stars, the moon. They have all been blown out.
You left me in the dark. No dawn, no day.
I'm always in this twilight, in the shadow of your heart.
It's attempting to find normalcy in the chaos that chokes and surrounds you. Feeling hesitant to feel joy--to allow yourself happiness in the darkness surrounding everything. I'm scared and horrified of everything that is happening; my world seems to be falling apart. But somehow, it's taking a deep breath and knowing that everything will turn out in the end. It's the outcry of love from people you never even knew existed.
Maybe this is all about sitting in the peaceful blackness of a backyard at midnight, crouched in a circle of three best friends. Holding hands tightly and crying until there are no more tears to cry. Promising honesty. Talking about broken hearts and fear. Hope and the future. Always be you.
It's choking down the sadness that is consuming you and choosing to move forward, strong and proud. Ready for the future.
I love you.

She & Him!

I'm finally getting around to posting about the She & Him concert I attended! These photos were taken by the nice young lady standing next to us, and she was kind enough to email them to me, since I didn't have my camera! Thank you, whoever you are.

Oh. My. Gosh. Those are literally the only words that come to mind. Courtney and I were standing in the 3rd row, so we were about ten feet away from Zooey Deschanel herself. She is so unbelievably gorgeous, it's truly ridiculous. Her haunting melodies filled the room, and the crowd screamed for an encore for at least ten minutes before they finally came back out and sang Sweet Darlin'. The show definitely topped the charts for me as far as concert experiences go; the only complaint I had was that she barely spoke a word to the audience for the first half hour, but she seemed to warm up to the crowd after that. Absolutely amazing. If you don't already listen to them, add them to your iPod now. They are breathtaking and fantastic and so very talented--definitely in my top five bands.

What's the best concert you've ever attended?

xoxo, Maddie.

FASHION.

I am absolutely obsessed with this song at the moment, (and of course Lady Gaga), and decided to make a music video on this lovely fall afternoon. Because really, it's way more fun than algebra homework...! Enjoy!

How have your weekends been?

xoxo, Maddie.

Starting September: This Year.

As the leaves start to turn red and orange, the air gets colder, windows are opened, and my nose gets a little too stuffy for comfort, the realization that autumn has arrived is swiftly brought to my attention. I simply cannot wait for thick scarves, denim jackets, black tights, wellies, and wool socks. I get all jittery and excited every time fall is even mentioned--it is my absolute favorite season.

At the start of this new season, I decided that September would be a suitable time to start a new list of goals and things I would like to achieve this year. Let the fun begin.

Organize and attend a Free Hugs rally. Attend a protest. Debate passionately in favor of things I believe in during youth in government. Download new music. Camp in the woods. Master the cat eye look. Vampire Weekend and Sufjan Stevens concerts. Have unbelievable fun with Cassidy this December. Start serving at a soup kitchen. Start a feminist club. Start a book club! Branch out with my blog and begin working more for improvement. Pick up writing fiction after so many months of not lifting a pen. Get in the Christmas spirit. Learn to play guitar. Paint a LOT. Fill dozens of disposable cameras. Find film for my Diana F+ Dreamer. Cuddle up with someone cute. Grow my hair just a little bit past my shoulders. Begin to keep inspiration journals for photography. Post the results regularly. Read, read, read. I have dozens and dozens of books on a to-read list that never seems to actually happen. Begin to practice positive thinking and the law of attraction. Start meditating on a daily basis. Exercise regularly and remove the toxins from my diet. Find a key chain for my keys. Watch loads of movies. Rock red lipstick. Begin to create things more often like I used to. Love life.

Images from WeHeartIt.

xoxo, Maddie.

Sparkling like the Sun.

I am truly enjoying life right now, and the direction it is taking me in.

Courtney and I did a photoshoot consisting of filling my entire bathtub with a whole canister of golden glitter.. My carpet sparkles like diamonds now!

xoxo, Maddie.

P.S. Thank you for all of the kind responses to my formspring post. I love you all.