I really am sorry for my continued neglect of this blog; I care for all of you that read it immensely, and I would love nothing more than to feel so full of happiness and light that I could share every ounce with all of you. But where I am at right now is not a position of bliss. I am frustrated with the confusing equations I see through blurry and frustrated vision. I am angry at all of the hours I spend staring at a chalk board or sitting in an uncomfortable desk. I want bike rides and freckles, sun-kissed skin. Iced mochas and red lips, longer hair and toned legs. I want to devote my time to consuming healthy foods and reading brilliant novels.
I could honestly care less about the "societal prisons for the nonconformists, as depicted through theme," because these seven hours a day are my own personal panopticon. I don't understand. I don't understand. I don't understand.
I'm in love with the wrong world with no direction of where I'd like to go. I'm drowning under this wave of academia and I can't seem to find the leisure any more to come up for air.
xoxo, Maddie.
4 comments:
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I hear ya..... Keep your chin up hun! I hate to tell you this, but chances are - having a job after school is finished won't get better in that sense. You just have to find a way to channel that frustration and prioritize the absolute MUSTS to stay Maddie. OR you stay true to who you are now, fully, focusing on your talents so you can be fortunate enough to work with what you are passionate about!! For sure you have more than enough talent ;))
xox
Linda
I know how you feel- I'm just so TIRED of it all, honestly. I want to curl up and sleep and read and laugh and dance.
I know exactly how you feel!
love your blog, will add it to my list
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